Thursday, January 14, 2010

Real Life Good Luck Chuck

When I was 15 turning 16, I was in a long (almost a whole year! Hey- that was long for me in high school) serious relationship with a boy named Jon. He had a car and was super sweet. We used to stay out late just driving around listening to music and talking.

One thing about me is I hate driving by dead animals. I get really upset. One time I made my mom stop in our neighborhood when I saw a rabbit hit by a car on the side of the road. We sat there for an hour waiting for an animal rescue to come see if they could do anything for the bunny. Unfortunately it died right there on the side of the road and I was devastated.

Jon had heard the story, probably more than once. One night when we were driving I pointed out what I thought was a dead dog and started getting sad. When we passed by he looked closely in the rearview mirror and said "nah...that was just some trash. Don't worry".

A week or so later I pointed out another dead animal. It was dark, so I wasn't sure what it was but before I could get sad he assured me it was just a brown bag.

The same thing happened with the next animal I 'thought' I saw. I started thinking that maybe my trauma had me seeing dead animals that weren't really there.

Until one night I saw what was very obviously a dead buck on the side of the road. Huge antlers and all. I cried out pointing it out to Jon as we drove by. He says "Nah....just trash again".
He'd been lying to me the whole time! I thought it was the sweetest thing ever.

Facebook tells me Jon got married last week. I've had 6 other ex boyfriends get married; but this one has bothered me the most so far. I dunno, I guess I just always had this thought hidden away in the back somewhere that if I was old and lonely he'd still be there. Single and waiting.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

SO far in 2010...

I have paid $3000 to an apartment complex I haven't lived in since October. Eaten 5 cans of tuna on lettuce. Made it to work on time 0 times. Slept in my contacts overnight only twice. Witnessed a snowboarding accident that resulted in death. Threw the Christmas tree out but haven't vacuumed the fallen needles.

My laundry is piled higher than my dresser. I wish I hadn't left it piling up for so long. I wish I had started the New Year off with an empty laundry basket.

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